Here is a poem about someone I love.. a poem that I've wrote long time ago.. but guess what? The ending has changed. =)

Because I Fell In Love With You

You once were my friend
Maybe the only male friend I had
And I lost you again
Because I fell in love with you

We used to talk to each other freely
And that's a good start for me
I've never had someone that I can talk to
As freely as I did to you

I've only had girl friends
And never told boys what I feel
You were the only one but I lost you again
Because I fell in love with you

It never seemed promising
And I knew it will ruin everything
The friendship I've built
Between me and you

You started to feel far in the distance
And I started to move away
I lost you as a friend
Because I fell in love with you

I couldn't talk to you freely anymore
Because my feelings had changed
I started to feel love
And I felt embarassed to even see you

I took a big step
That will end it all
I was about to destroy our friendship
Because I fell in love with you

I told you my feelings
And you didn't feel the same
We promised to still be friend
But it could never be the same again

I got a broken heart
And I lost a friend
Because I fell in love with you

Okay okay.. I'll spill it. I'm officially in a relationship now.. I'm not that sad-always-single-girl anymore. I knew I thought I'll always be single.. but it turns out that I won't. Since this is a public blog however, and I hate to announce to everyone who it is and be in the spotlight, I'll just let you all do the guess. Some of my best friends already knew.. but I bet 80% of the students haven't. Well, I actually dunno how those couples could be exposed so easily, or maybe I'm just not able to show it well? o_O Ooh.. I dunno, really, I'm not an expert at this thing. And btw, you... lucky guy, if you're reading this, now you know I'm not an expert at this thing so don't blame me if I act the same as before we're a couple. =p You gotta teach me.. coz you've got one relationship before. ^^

Okay.. I told you I hate to be in the spotlight.. so I'm just gonna shudup about that. Bottomline is, I'm very happy to have you (you know who you are) and thank you for this memorable moment. =) Ever since I become 17, magically all things turn out to be better. o_O Sometimes I still think that it's all a dream.. I finally know what people mean by 'too good to be true' but well.. this is reality and I must make myself sure that I deserve this. I've been through lots and LOTS of hard times (see how much I complained in this blog?) And I swear with this much happiness I won't ever complain again. I don't dare to and I can't possibly have something to complain about. Anywho, yeah, that's all about my new and perfect life. =) Luv ya, my dear. *hugs and kisses*

1. Birthdate?
3rd of September, 1987

2. From what college?
SMAK Tirta Marta BPK Penabur

3. Where would you wanna go right now?
Anywhere would be okay =)

4. What is ur wish rite now?
I don't dare to wish for anything else.. for my greatest wish has come true

5. When did you last cry?
Yesterday.. but it was a cry of happiness

6. Do you like your handwriting?
Think so. Though it's rather boring. But I'm a perfectionist, so the handwriting kind of suits me

7. Any bad habits?
Mm... too many

8. What is your most embarrassing moment?
Can't remember

9. What would u change about u?
I need more self-esteem, yo

10. Are you a daredevil?
Not really

11. Who inspires you to live?
God

12. Do looks matter?
Not at all

13. Do you believe in ghosts?
Think so

14. How many piercings do you have?
One on each ear

15. Are you trendy?
Not really

16. How do you release anger?
Crying

17. Where is your second home?
The Net (but not anymore, I think)

18. What were your favorite toy(s) as a child?
Um.. books. I've always been in love with books

19. Favorite subject/sports
Languages, swimming, ice skating

20. When is ur best moment(s) of your life?
Yesterday is one example. When I simply love and be loved in return.

21. Favorite dessert?
Ice cream

22. ABS-CBN or GMA?
Umm..?

23. Favorite bands?
Nothing in particular

24. What do you look for in a girl/boy?
Their personalities

25. What is your nickname?
Simply my first name

26. Would you bungee?
Nope

27. What do you wear when u sleep?
Pyjama?

28. What do u worry about right now?
Nothing =)

29. Did u ever go on a diet?
Have been trying to desperately

32. Who's ur crush in showbiz?
Mm.. those handsome guys in LOTR ^^

33. What's your favorite color combination?
Orange and green

34. Favorite ice cream flavour?
Chocolate (with Oreo)

35. Favorite animal?
Bunny

36. Are you in love now?
Yes, much

37. What will be ur wedding song?
One of that song composed by someone.. um.. Mozart? I think. It's sweet and such, but well, how was I to know.

38. Greatest regret?
Nothing at the moment

39. Kyla or nina?
Who the hell are they o_O

40. Motto in life?
Everything happens for a reason [it does!]

41. One nite stand or long term relationship?
Long term

42. Future profession?
Story writer [hopefully]

43. What is the perfect date?
Romantic one

44. What would u like for your birthday?
Anything that I can use

45. What will be your resolution?
Changing into a better person

46. What is/are ur best asset/s?
Dunno

47. Are u a better listener or a better adviser?
Listener

48. Message to your enemy /enemies?
I wish we could be friends again..

Life has changed so much ever since I get 17. But since some of them are rather private, I won't share it here, considering this is a public blog. By the way, I feel that something inside of me is changing. Big time. It feels like I'm stepping to another phase in my life. A higher phase. A better one. I hope I am really changing into someone else better, someone else more mature. Life is one big deal, and we need to try to fill it with as much useful activities as possible. I'm going to make sure every single part of my life is on good condition. Whether it is school, health, relationship, and everything else. I'm going to make sure I'm changing to a better person. Sorry to all of you that I've hurt before, and I promise I'll try to be a new me. So all supports and such is highly appreciated. I pray for all of you's happiness, especially those who have helped me to get to this point, and those who have helped me make this changes possible. It's all because of you.