Yet another Gold Award for me.. and one more Silver. Life hasn't been that great, but is okay right now. I try to be thankful to every day in my life, and enjoy every bright side I got. Next Saturday I'll be attending one of my classmates Sweet Seventeen birthday which would be held in a hotel. Gonna be a great first Sweet 17 party experience. Probably will give me ideas about mine which would come on September as well. Come to think of it, I'm getting scared as it's getting nearer. Getting 17 is a big leap in life and I don't have that much plans in my life yet. I have so many dreams, but don't know how to accomplish them. As much as I want to finish school ASAP and get to university, I have no clue about which university shall I choose. Should I go abroad? Or stay here? The one thing I hate the most is leaving my friends, they've been my best friends for years and it's gonna be very sad having to be separated from them. And I hate to make new friendships because I know they're gonna be hard, especially for a person like me.

For the first time in my life I realize that I'm afraid of the future. I still wanna be here and I don't wanna change. I want to do what me and my friends have always wanted but never managed to do. I want to stay overnight in someone else's house, have a PJ party, travel somewhere only with my friends and without my parents. Why does living in America or in other country gives you easier ways to do such things? Why does living here make them all seem so difficult? It's unfair. It is as unfair as how everyone out there can have various colors of hair and eyes while in Asia everyone has black. It's very very unfair.