Mr. Cool ordered a CD to me and this was one of the songs. As usual, I don't listen to the requested songs, I just downloaded them, burnt them to the CD, and received payment. However, when I heard the song in American Idol, I knew I'd heard this somewhere, and this is in fact a very nice groovy song. I couldn't stop moving when it was sung! Very lovely. Ironically, I fell in love with the song immediately, despite the lyrics. Ironically again, Anwar got voted out the next week because of this song. :-s

September
Earth, Wind, and Fire

Do you remember the 21st night of September?
Love was changing the minds of pretenders
While chasing the clouds away

Our hearts were ringing
In the key that our souls were singing.
As we danced in the night,
Remember how the stars stole the night away

Say do you remember
Dancing in September
Never was a cloudy day

My thoughts are with you
Holding hands with your heart to see you
Only blue talk and love,
Remember how we knew love was here to stay

Now December found the love that we shared in September
Only blue talk and love,
Remember the true love we share todayyy yeah

Say do you remember
Dancing in September
Never was a cloudy day

Say do you remember
Dancing in September
Golden dreams were shiny days

The bells were ringing
oh our souls were singing
Do you remember, never a cloudy day?

I'm loving my weekend. My FREEEE day. Please don't blame me if my parents can't drag me outta the house. I've been dreaming for holiday for weeks, and now that I've got it, I'm gonna sleep, spend the day with reading, watching DVDs, and writing stories. There's a competition for story writing I'm gonna enter with my best friends, wish us luck. I'm writing the story at the moment and it's based on our true lives. Very exciting. =D

I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And I don't really matter
To anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall.
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed?
There beside you where I used to lay.

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough by Don Henley and Patty Smith.

Just read at how true the words are. Sometimes I wonder why bitter songs have more truths than mellow-all-beautiful-romantic songs? Some of those romantic ones are just indeed too good to be true, aren't they? Hm.. or am I just becoming bitter? Like one of those people who could never believe in love again? Don't think so and don't wanna be.. although I'm still wondering, how can something so strong like love be not enough?

Anyway, today is pretty crazy, school's back like usual cos they postponed the final exam which is terribly annoying because we had to study more and get less holidays. Plus it seems that my university will begin in July instead of August or September like the others. Sucks much? I've been looking forward to the three months holiday everyone has always been talking about during the transition from school to university. Seems like I'm not gonna get that, thanks to stupid government who always do last-minute changes that always only affect the students in my year. Really it seems like the students in our year always get the bad luck. But anyhow. That means more 'sightseeing' of Mr. Handsome and I guess I shouldn't complain. :D

Oh hey, by the way, Blogger's commenting system worked!! After some tricks I did finally it would obey my will and work properly. But I put up a Shoutbox anyhow, since it looked good without the iframe and well, realized I need it for lazy people who wouldn't click on "Comment".

Everyone's got a date or a girlfriend.. *sigh* Will someone even ever ask me to go to the prom with? I guess my lifetime dream of having a romantic prom will never come true anyways. *sigh*

GREAT NEWS! Actually it's quiet unbelievable. There was a story writing competition for a local teen magazine months ago, and as usual I sent in my entries, refusing to give up although I've never won. Then the results came out, and once again I didn't win anything at all. This year is going to be my one last chance because the age limit is 18 I believe, and after that I can't enter again. So I've accepted the fact that I still don't win anything and I'll just try harder next year. But can you believe it? Today, the phone rang and my maid told me it's from the magazine. Half hoping it's about a freelance job I asked them a while ago, I picked up the phone and heard that they're going to publish my story instead! So here's the story, apparently my story indeed didn't win but it was one of the nominations. That means it was good, and they've decided to publish it anyway! Although the money I'm going to receive isn't as much as if my story had won, it still feels great that finally my talent is acknowledged. Feels good to know that I indeed have a chance, that my desire can be actually be put into something productive. I've always loved writing, and think I have the talent, but I've never been acknowledged much except for the two trophies I've got years ago in a small writing competition. So I'm glad that finally the magazine decided to publish it, because this is the first time I actually will see my story being published in a magazine. Yeah believe it or not it's not always that easy, even when you think you have the talent to do so. Anyways, I'm so so so HAPPY! I'm gonna be acknowledged, I'm gonna get money, what else I could ask for?

New layout and new commenting system makes me wanna update and update. =D Today is the practice exam for PE and I feel like every single muscle in my body is already protesting, demanding a full day sleep tomorrow but guess what, our evil teachers of course won't let us. In fact, we have to go to school tomorrow with full hours, AND have an exam. Geez, these people aren't human.

Anyhow, first thing today was the usual 800 m run. We had to run two laps outside the school, circling around a bunch of houses. I just wish the path was smooth! If it was, I probably wouldn't have had any trouble. The stupid road was sloping upward, so you can imagine how I felt when I've done the two laps. It's evil. =( After that, I'm just happy I didn't pass out. Next up was shotput, I was pretty much exhausted so I could only throw it 4.5 meter away.. oh well. Whatever. It was heavy, dude. After that it was long jump, normally at exercises I could do at least 3 meters, but today dunno what happened I could only reach 2.5 meters.. yeah sport is definitely not my thing. Then after that there was gymnastic.. which made us being watched by the guys cos we were doing these moves that sort of like dance.. and boy, how they're distracting. I was trying to concentrate, so I kept a straight expression, and can you believe this effort made me get a B+ instead of A or A-?! Nobody said you have to smile while doing this!! What a ridiculous stuff? B+ for not smiling? What is this, acting class? Sooo unfair.

After that there was a lay-up test for basketball, and yeah I do have long feet but that doesn't make me automatically good at basketball. Not to mention I was too busy minding my steps so none of the balls I threw made it into the basket. Another B+ for me I guess.. the fun part is that this guy I like? He's good at it.. and me and my friends asked for his help.. okay maybe just my friends cos today I'm not so brave.. but oooh just remembering it makes me wanna melt.. yeeesss melt. Such handsome-ness I cannot handle. And he's really gentle and patient too.. gosh I wish he's single. I'm practically drooling over here. Besides, looking at... okay I'll stop. If I mention another trait I'm not sure I will be safe, because this is a public blog and my friends at school might find him very soon because what I wanna mention is very obvious.. it's gonna lead you straight to him. So I'll just keep it secret. =) More fun that way, no? Anyway, yesterday he touched me, okay shoved me out of his way but gentlely (reaaally gentle), and I could feel my heart skipped a beat. GORGEOUSNESS!! Why oh why do I never feel this way when he was still single? Life is sooo ironic at times. His girlfriend is oh-so-lucky.

Weird thing is about this guy, let me just tell ya, usually I'm a passive girl. I never make the first move, I never talk to guys I like first, but with him? Every time he talks to me, I have this urge to keep talking, keep asking, making sure the conversation gets longer and longer. I have the urge to be ACTIVE. To gain his attention. He's changing me, can you believe it? I'm usually shy around guys especially those I like, but around him, I become confident and I want to prove myself more and more. Get more active and more active. Talk to him with ease, ask him stuffs, smile and get his attention. It's amazing. I never felt this way before with someone else. Around him I could be myself and feel comfortable. And I really meant myself, myself that isn't shy and quiet. Because my real self ISN'T shy and quiet. Everyone in the net knows that, ask my net friends if you don't trust me. I guess this is a good step. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not trying to get near to him or make him like me back [heck, that would make me evil]. This might sound selfish, but I'm just doing this because it's good for me, for my better future. For a better change. If I could keep up this new attitude, sooner or later I probably could apply it to everyone else too. And I'll be a brand new confident girl. =) Not like he would be attracted to me anyway, heh, with just few harmless casual friendly conversations here and there. Besides, I've got a chance to change myself with his help, and he won't even realize it and he's got nothing to lose. Win-win situation, no? So yeah, this is just a sort of training for me. *nods* Oh and anyway, I'll appreciate it if none of you reading this, especially those at school, try to gather the clues I've spread here and there, narrow it down and find the guy. =) I don't want trouble. I don't want him to know I like him, just watching him from afar is good enough. After all he's already in a relationship, a sweet one that I don't wanna jeopardize. Thanks. =D