My name's gonna be drawed like a lottery ticket in order to get me a prom date. Hmm.. I'm that undesirable to guys, even as an escorter. Not that I care. I mean.. no big deal, right? It's just a prom. Why would I spend my whole life dreaming about this oh-so-supposed-to-be-wonderful night. At least with them drawing it, I'll end up with someone eventually, and not alone.

Have been really feeling lonely lately, don't know why. Maybe just my hormones making me all emotional, melancholy, and such. But really, I feel like something's incomplete. Yea I have friends I can talk to, but still.. I feel so lonely. And scared. Feels like... what am I gonna do in my life? Indescribable really.. everything in school's going well, I did my final exams confidently for the first time ever, and nothing bad's going on in my life. But why.. why do I still feel empty?

I miss an old friend. So much. I wish I know how to reach her. She used to always be there everyday, and I can share my problems.. anything.. to her. I can even open up to her more than I can do to my parents. See, even when typing this I wanna cry. I'm feeling lonely and confused, and I need someone who knows me better than me. And it's her. Gosh.. where is she now.. I wish she'd call me. I wish she could stay here just one night.. so I could tell her everything that's bothering me. I miss her so much..