Whew. Five awards in a row, dude. One bronze, three silvers, and one gold! Hard to get Gold lately, but I'm surprised that my Sense and Sense Ability banner is the one that gets it. I mean, wow, that one was very simple. o_O I wasn't expecting it at all.

Anywho, final exams are still around, and so far I think I'll fail Math, Physics, and History, but let's just hope I don't. However, no more counting numbers after this, tomorrow it's Economy and Accountancy but they're not *that* hard, so I guess I'm safe for now. Everything is great now that school is almost over, and vacation is ahead! Wahoo! I guess I'll manage to go to Europe after all. Mum and Dad have been discussing about it and I think they'll agree! I know, I know, it costs really much that I don't even dare to write the total amount of money we would spend here, but if I'm still in the first rank this semester, I guess I pretty deserve it, huh? School has made me stressed and depressed, and without a vacation I'll drop dead.

So after this probably I won't be going anywhere, as much as I want to experience a white Christmas. Maybe that'll only happen when I already have a job and when I have my own money. Speaking of that, lately I've been wanting to live all by myself. I mean, I'm the youngest children and my parents always drag me everywhere they go coz my brother is already too old to go along with them and my other brother is across the sea. Well well, poor me! And it's not always fun either. We keep getting into debates and you know parents, they never (okay, rarely) understand us. So the situation is pretty annoying for me, and it ruins my day. I'm stuck with them everywhere and I'm always blamed for everything bad that happens. Duh! I want my own life!

So I lost my Gold ranks in Alternate Realities Blends, but well, it's still cool there so I'm not leaving. With Blending Magic, I guess finally I have to surrender. Too many people participating is never fun for me. Life is still boring as usual, school has started again and today we had computer test, and I wasn't too creative but at least I've got all effects covered.. great that one effect I can't manage to complete wasn't part of the questions. It's fuckin' weird, only me cannot make it successfully even though I've done the exact same steps like everyone else. Everyone else just need a simple way and BAM.. there's the good ol' computer who will obey their words easily. When it's my turn to touch it, it won't work, no matter what I do even though my friends were all there watching me doing it step by step with the very exact same way. It's like I'm cursed with bad luck or something. Weirdish.

Just applied for another promotion request in FGB, hopefully this time it won't be denied or all my posts would be wasted. I'm tired fighting, I guess I'll give up if this time it's denied again. Final exams would begin on Tuesday, horray to everyone else who had passed them. And horray to me too coz I can finally end this year's school. Long holiday waiting with a plan to go to Europe, which still needs to be doubted will work. I really hope I can go there this time. We've been planning it for quite some time. I wanna see Eiffel! That's a must! And I can't wait to spend time in romantic Rome, and be in the gondolas in Venice, and finally visit London as well. Whew, just hope this will work.

I got a Bronze Award from Tya's Blending Site. Seriously, I am shocked because Parker got Amazing, since he usually create more beautiful works than me. And the one who got Gold has got such a simple blend. Soo.. I shall use no brushes? Well well, weird indeed. ^^;

Anyhow, life is boring currently. I've got a week holiday, but as boring as it could be, it's still better than going to school. I've been able to finish 1 1/2 more chapters for my novel, which has been abandoned quite long. Some novels I bought made by other teenagers motivated me to keep working on my own, and hopefully mine could be published as well, although so far I'm still on Chapter 6 while it's intended to be 20 Chapters. Still a long journey, but time will solve it all.

Rented two VCDs namely Spy Kids 3D and My Boss's Daughter, but I'm not in the mood to watch them. My Boss's Daughter is funny, but as usual it's too good to be true. Sometimes I find myself jealous to the characters in the movie where everything would end well and everybody's happy. However I'm impressed by the end of 50 First Dates, considering Drew didn't get her memory back until the end. It was unbelievable, yes, that she can live a life like that, but it's still more realistic than most other movies that just have a miracle happening at the end. Anyway, that's the end of my rant for today.

LOL two Honorable after a row of Golds. Blending Magic is one tough blend site.. and it's getting filled with more people so it's getting harder to get a good award. But anyways, I'm still not going to give up..

Since nothing happens in real life.. guess I'll just blog about FGB.. well basically my promotion was denied, seems like getting to Level 4 is gonna be tough, seeing how many Level 3s are still around even though they used to go up the levels fast before. My WWD participation has been increased, but evil T said she won't be counting any posts before my last promotion request so that means I have to work on ALL my posts all over again, including the SMG. That's the hard thing, coz you need at least 60 posts to fulfill the requirements. Gah, all the hardwork before is useless?

And by the way, what's the point of me blogging here anyway? Nobody ever comments even though I've put the commenting system for each entry.. and nobody says anything in my Tagboard. Blah.. at least this thing can be the place to store my awards. I love this blog too much to get rid of it. And by the way, I need new layout!! Grr.. I really have to find a way to make it myself.

Yet another Gold Award for me.. and one more Silver. Life hasn't been that great, but is okay right now. I try to be thankful to every day in my life, and enjoy every bright side I got. Next Saturday I'll be attending one of my classmates Sweet Seventeen birthday which would be held in a hotel. Gonna be a great first Sweet 17 party experience. Probably will give me ideas about mine which would come on September as well. Come to think of it, I'm getting scared as it's getting nearer. Getting 17 is a big leap in life and I don't have that much plans in my life yet. I have so many dreams, but don't know how to accomplish them. As much as I want to finish school ASAP and get to university, I have no clue about which university shall I choose. Should I go abroad? Or stay here? The one thing I hate the most is leaving my friends, they've been my best friends for years and it's gonna be very sad having to be separated from them. And I hate to make new friendships because I know they're gonna be hard, especially for a person like me.

For the first time in my life I realize that I'm afraid of the future. I still wanna be here and I don't wanna change. I want to do what me and my friends have always wanted but never managed to do. I want to stay overnight in someone else's house, have a PJ party, travel somewhere only with my friends and without my parents. Why does living in America or in other country gives you easier ways to do such things? Why does living here make them all seem so difficult? It's unfair. It is as unfair as how everyone out there can have various colors of hair and eyes while in Asia everyone has black. It's very very unfair.