Happy New Year for twelve hours later. I'm still stuck in my house and I guess my parents won't let me stay overnight in a hotel for New Year's Eve like usual because we just went out of town yesterday plus my mother has got a whole lot of decoration orders. So what am I gonna do waiting for New Year? I'm not a kind of person who likes to make New Year Resolution. But Ryan, my loved one from C:tP forced me to promise that when he comes back I would have already reached Level 4 in FGB (Isn't that sweet?) and I would have already been a good fighter, a better fighter than him. Ooh.. romantic, isn't it? Or probably not. Well, I feel honored that he wants the best for me to happen even when he's away and I don't have him to support me in my down times when I still don't get promoted.. he's truly helping me get through hard times and always encourage me to do my best in FGB and eventually get promoted.

Ooh.. I have finally mentioned him in my blog! But some of you probably don't know him yet. Well, his one of C:tP and Tru Calling member too, and I met him in a fight in WWD. It was in the Fight Club where all members from both sides could join the fight but I don't know how I always end up only fighting him. And somehow I feel he's a tough and skilled opponent, unlike some ADAers I've met before. Then we ended our fights and created a One on One Thread instead because we wanted to have a more private fight, and we met in Havoc for the first time. He started to give compliments to me and left his seducing ADAer girl behind, and I was flattered. The relationship grew to sending PMs to each other almost everytime we're online, and then I got MSN and we talked even much more through the messenger. He's sweet and caring, and I hope you know I mean it when you read this, Ryan. Oh by the way his real name isn't Ryan but I just love that name so I'll just call him by that name instead. He lives in Singapore and as much as I was hoping for a miracle and bumped into him when I travelled to Singapore, that didn't happen. Probably we'll meet when the time is right. I'll always be waiting for you to come back to C:tP! Good luck always and may you be blessed for all you've done for me. (Just in case you don't know it's all so meaningful to me)

C:tp IS BACK!! Can you believe it? It finally comes back!! That was the biggest event around right now.. except New Year of course. Well, they deleted a bunch of threads even some forums like SF Theme Park (I ditto this!) and Buckland's Appraisals (Ooh.. cry..) and I'll never get my requested banner done. Hmph. So much for requesting a banner. I just can't get that beautiful banner done.. oh well. I guess I'll need to make it by myself. FGB is still good, and we vanquished two demons at a time (Guess what? T is as impatient as us! Muahaha..) and the GMAing is still stuck because not all members of the group have noticed that C:tP is back. But I still haven't get promoted, though. That's okay, being Level one is always fun. Although being Level two probably will just add the fun. In Tru Calling I've already accepted as a Trainee and now waiting to be promoted to Level one in the next meeting.

I just got back from Carita, a town that's located near the sea so you can find beaches everywhere. Only stayed overnight then went back home again.. and I didn't swim in the sea if you wanna know, I swam in the swimming pool because that's what swimming pools are for, right? For swimming. I never really liked the sea, because not just that the water is salty and could hurt your eyes, but it also has got sands everywhere (which gets into your clothes) and you have to swim with all your clothes on because I'm not going to expose myself in bikini in front of the whole people at the shore. No, thank you, but swimming pool exposure was enough. Besides I'm quite afraid of the fishes. And what you can't see below. Who knows if somewhere within the corals there are poisonous sea-snake or whatever. I know I'm being paranoid but I'm just afraid of the sea and I don't like it. I prefer to go to mountains rather than go to the sea.

Yesterday I finally had a chance to meet and chat with fellow members from Aestera.Net and I learnt much about Tarot Cards. Apparently, they are so unique and the spirits inside have many different personalities. I never knew if they could resist from being used, or even become jealous with another cards. To tell you the truth, I even never knew if they have spirits. I mean I knew there are spirits inside them but I never knew they're just like human, with all the emotions and thoughts. I have always wanted to have a deck of my own, but since it's too expensive and rare I haven't had one until now. And now hearing about the others that have them, I think I should reconsider buying them for myself. Despite the fact that I haven't known about them that deep, I also only have little spare time and I'm afraid they'll become angry if I never pay attention to them. Then who could tell what can they do? They're spirits! I dunno, sounds quite creepy to me. Living with spirits inside your room. I think I don't wanna deal with spirits yet. Although I love magical things so much. Not forgetting what my parents would say when I ask them to buy me a deck of cards with spirits in them, duh. I guess I'll just ask for my future to be told by those who already have the cards, because I have a huge love problem here (sounds pathetic?) and I really don't know what to do. This problem is making my feelings going upside down all the time, I don't even know how to describe it. I feel like I'm being pulled and pushed at the same time, so many times through the journey. It's weird, sometimes I feel like he's the one, many signs appear to make me believe he is, but the truth always say he doesn't care for me. In fact, he already has someone else in his heart. Then why would the signs point me to him? To let my heart break again? That's so annoying. I once even thought he could replace someone else I had in my heart before since he's now gone to another country. But seems like this one is no replacement at all, he's only a second person to break my heart.

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Haley James! The person who made Becca and Samantha got obsessed with. I don't even know her, but seeing what she has done to my best friends I guess it's good that I'm most like her. Because then I could make Becca and Samantha probably gets obsessed with me too.

Yippee! New layout for my blog. I wasn't satisfied with the last one and created a new one. I tried to download a layout from free layout sites but had no idea how to put it together here so I just took a picture and put it as a nice header. Going to change this blog's title as well soon. Uh... is the writing too small? Please don't say yes. If I enlarge the size it wouldn't look as nice as this is. I think I'm not going anywhere this holiday. Coz it's just two weeks plus I've gone to Singapore last week. Although I'm always dreaming of a White Christmas (just like the one I never saw) I don't know when that dream would come true. What about New Year Eve? I'm hoping at least we're going to stay in a hotel in the 31th to celebrate New Year with a bunch of other people rather than watching New Year celebrations alone on TV. That's gonna be not interesting at all! And I don't even know what would I do in 2004. Probably just getting promoted to the next level in FGB. Uh-huh, I'm a pathetic computer world freak.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I can't believe I didn't have time to get here and update the blog yesterday. I just joined Charmed-Boards, and decided to try and apply for an open RPG Role. And within hours, I was told that I got the role of Prue Halliwell! Geez, I can't believe it! You know how hard it is to get a role in C:tP's official RPGs. Well, I assume CB is much more easier. Thank goodness I can finally participate in an official RPG. It was so exciting that my RPing skill is finally appreciated as much as it needed to be. And I already got an access to CB's good vs evil covens thing too, but I guess they just started it or what coz it's been two days since I registered as a new member in the good side (again?) but still hasn't got any responds. As I've said before, C:tP is the best in everything, RPGs (the harder you get the role, the better the quality of the RPG), good vs evil covens (FGB is such a wonderful place with so many active helpers!) and much more. God, when will C:tP come back? *sniff*

Not gonna talk about C:tP today coz as you all know it's no secret that the place has turned into a dead city (I hope the admins survive...) and I've just got a new link to the board called TruCalling.Net. Okay, it's not as great as C:tP (cannot be compared, actually) but enough to distract me with the same RPG format of good vs evil covens. And without thinking I chose to join the good side again, duh. I was supposed to look into the evil one since I've been good in FGB. Oh well, nevermind. Just updated my IE to IE version 6 so now I can see what color my blog's scrollbar really look and just installed Flash as well so now I can play every game in Neopets (to kill the boredom of no C:tP, of course, and yeah I managed to increase my NPs quite drastically). Now all I need is only my Kazaa to work properly and increase its speed so I can download every show's episodes like everyone else does and I'll be the happiest computer owner in the world and I'll never leave this seat anymore.

Uh-huh. I'm the "you suck, and that's sad" happy bunny? What is that suppose to mean? The bunny isn't even happy, it looks sad. I took the quiz since Lizzie just gave me a new name which is Hoppy the Bunny (I told her I prefer Bunny only.. but no, I don't wanna be compared to Bugs Bunny though) and it turned out to be weird, but at least you guys know now what kind of "happy" bunny I am.

Okay, they don't even update the weird newsletter now. I always have this picture in my head about the admins and moderators of C:tP being drunk after the revamp and all laying down on the floor like a pile of... I don't know.. domino cards? Defeated soldiers? Okay.. sorry if my imagination is going crazier and crazier each day.. but this is because I'm starting to lose my mind since I lost C:tP. Yesh, C:tP means THAT much to me, and I believe it means that much to some others too. I've been practically living there since I spend almost half time of my real life there, diving my head deeper and deeper into the cyber beautiful world. Oh and FGB.. if this revamp thing don't finish soon I don't know in what year I'll be promoted to the next level.

Finally finished the basic layout for my bloggi.. going to add more soon. Thanks so much to all my friends who helped me with the freakin' HTMLs. C:tP is still down and now the admins have some sort of weird newsletter put up there, thinking that could distract or entertain us so that we'll stop bugging them about how slow they work... well, the only thing it has done is making me believe they've gone crazy from the whole revamp thing (bad C:tP members!) or probably too enjoying the situation with no members and decided to keep the board for themselves and not letting anyone enter anymore! But that's just one of my crazy thoughts that came up because I miss C:tP so much... oh please bring back C:tP really soon before I create a copycat board.